FormerlyAKnotholeResident

He was an depressed, pathetic, egotistical, self-righteous, fascist, delusional, introvert that didn't care about the turmoil he caused.

Sounds like Penders right now...

With that said, thanks for the warm welcomes. It really means a lot considered my (negative) history with FUS.

Everyone deserves a second chance

Well technically, its actually my uh...8th chance =P In regards to being self deprecating, I actually deserve those insults but Im glad that I eventually had an epiphany about the dark times and tried to start with a clean slate.

When FUS started out in 2000, the original goal was to somehow bring the show back to television and get convince Ben Hurst to release season 3. Most of that was accomplished when the DVD boxset was released and when Ben Hurst released the synopsis for season 3's storyline. My antics on the board started when an influx of new fans were introduced to Sonic through Sonic Adventure and Sonic Adventure. At that time, this when the whole "new millennium" hype was huge and the idea of intentionally forgetting about Sonic's history to focus on this next gen series was just ludicrous. The rage actually started when the Sega' American branch started to call Dr Robotnik, Dr Eggman. American fans that grew up in the 90s always refered to him as Dr Robontik. Hell, even the advertisements openly called him Dr Robonik so naturally, thats what I was raised to address him as. Once Sonic Adventure was released, I remember a sense of savior bittiness when Sonic kept calling Robotink, Eggman. Ill be brutally honest. Eggman is an undignified name compared to Robotnik and I never understand why Sega thought it would be wise to use his Japanese name in the west. But add the fact that the games themselves degraded over time and you have fanboy rage lol.

The 00s was just a horrible horrible era for me ={

Prime, Im quite aware of my past and know of the misdeeds that I committed. There's no point in dwelling on irrelevant subject matters for the sake of opening wounds. Chief and I had a private discussion about this and if he and the other admins can move on, I dont see why you cant. The only thing that one can do in a damaged situation like that is learn from the experience. Granted, Ive made numerous proclamations of leaving the fanbase F0R3VERZ, but it was only for a couple days or a couple weeks. Ive been away from fanbases in general for nearly 3 years. A lot can happen within that time frame and fortunately, it did...for the better. I became more focused on my original projects, my career path, and broaden my social life. Retrospectively, my 20s was the worst era of my life. Economic hardship, living with a family that doesn't support your endeavors or choices of lifestyle, watching every aspect of entertainment just crumble; emphasis on Sonic. The fact that Ive been around the online Sonic fanbase since 1994, the early 00s was a decade of question business practices, inept decisions, and embarrassing releases. Add to that to my depression and you get a rage riddled Sonic fan that projected bitterness and negativity everywhere cause he yearned for a time when money wasnt an issue and his childhood franchises werent being bastardized. Its why I became so militant about SatAM. I honestly thought it was the only variation of Sonic that everyone should watch and used to coercion upon Sonic fans that disagreed with me. The movie project was my way to assert my purpose in the fandom and yes, it was an act of attention cause I claimed to be the savior of the SatAM franchise. To be succinct about the whole thing, I was a dick and I sincerely apologize for all the commotion and drama that I inflicted.

And to preface, this is not one of those phony apologies for the intent of weaseling myself back onto a forum I was banned from as I was notorious for. This is a legitimate remorseful act of redemption cause it honestly took me this long to realize that I was a problem. You see, when you're nearly 3 years away from a hostile community, it gave me the opportunity to reflect and analyze why everyone was on my case. I started to view Sonic from an outsiders perspective and came to the realization that I was increasingly overbearing in my posts and videos. It all stemmed to my crippling depression and my actions clouded my judgement cause Sonic evolved into a dangerous obsession where it consumed my life to where it was the only thing I concentrated on. Want to know why I was frequently posting on various Sonic boards on a daily basis? That's the reason.

Call it a revelation, but the time I quit the Sonic Fan Film and left the fanbase was the same time I turned 30. It may have been a cosmic coincidence, but to me it represented growth and transition. And from early 2011-now, my life has dramatically improved. I moved out of my mom's, landed a full time job thats conducive to my talent, paying off my student debt without family assistance, and overall, being independent.

So the question is this. Am I still a fan of Sonic and other franchises still? Of course, but Im not vocal about it nor place it on a high priority list. Some people know that Im a fan of that My Little Pony show, but ironically, I have NEVER posted on any of their forums or anywhere in general. Same applies to music forums. Its not that I dont wanna interact with other people who share my interest, I just fear of repeating history and its a great way to show restraint. The only venues I do post on, are my own private blogs.

As of recent though, Ive noticed that the Sea3on comic has made a jump in quality in terms of its aesthetics, narrative, and creativity. I started reading them again when I discovered an issue that dealt with NICOLE and Ive been very engaged with its story. When I heard that the comic was being adapted into a animated series, it was like that first moment when I joined FUS back in 2000. Ambitious SatAM fans uniting to bring back SatAM in some form or at least getting Season 3 produced. It might be nostalgia talking, but I find it very endearing that FUS is finally accomplishing their original goal. And let me just answer you right now, no, Im not asking if I can contribute. I'm just a quite observer from the sidelines lending my support. Besides, from the videos Ive watched it seems that you guys have a professional team assembled and I look forward to see its progress.

Anyway, this went on longer than I intended. Whether you forgive me or not from my past transgressions is up to you, but being antagonistic on old trivial e-drama isn't going to accomplish anything positive. With that said, I wish everyone involved with Seas3on animated good luck!